July 2009
1 post
7 I am an incredibly social person.
I tend to forget this often. I am lazy too, which means I normally pass up the opportunity to go out because I’m too lazy to get dressed and ready, but I always forget that I love going out and that I always have a blast when I do. I am the happiest when I have a busy social calendar.
June 2009
1 post
6 Therapy is not working out the way I expected it to.
Before therapy I lived in a land called “Denial.” I went through the day pretending and convincing myself that I didn’t have any of the issues that plague me. Sure it wasn’t healthy, but it let me keep going through the daylight hours. At bedtime I just couldn’t keep those thoughts and feelings at bay...
5 My favorite thing is reading.
To me, there is nothing more exciting, more satisfying, more complete gratifying than reading. To feel the smooth pages beneath my fingertips. To read words that I constantly wish I had written. To weep with the characters, to feel with the charatacters, to fall in love with the characters… it is the ultimnate high for me.
Some would say that my love...
May 2009
6 posts
4 I don’t have self-esteem issues.
Seriously, I don’t. No matter what others think, my observations that I am unattractive, or a plain jane at best, are no based on teenage angst issues, they are purely rational. Not everyone in this world can be beautiful right? It is impossible. I know I fall into the not-beautiful types.
The funny thing is that I actually like my overweight...
3 I actually do love to write.
For the past couple of days I’ve spent every free second (including sleepless nights) re-reading one of my favorite book series: Jessica Darling. I’ve been happier been couped up in my bedroom reading like an anti-social dork, more than I’ve been in weeks. And reading such an amazing series has inspired me to write about my neurotic thoughts...
2 I am going to have to change if I want a guy to see me as more than a “friend”.
This was my breakthrough in therapy today: maybe I am always the friend, never the girlfriend because my actions tell guys how to act around me. I am always taking care of them and being supportive without necessarily letting someone do the same for me. So somehow I have to change how guys see me...
1 I am obsessed with figuring out who I am.
Case in point this blog. Don’t really know why but for as long as I can remember I’ve struggled to define myself somehow. I have dozens of “lists” scribbled in notebooks everywhere that show what I liked or what I didn’t like when I wrote them.
Prompt
I created this blog to put in to action a plan that I have been concocting for a while: everyday for, well for as long as I wish to, I am going to write something about myself. It can be something I discovered, something I like or dislike, or simply something I need or want. The goal is to figure out who I am, and maybe in the process, discover what I should change and realize why I do the things...